ΑΠΛΑ ΕΓΩ
Πέφτω...
Δεν μπορώ να κρατηθώ άλλο...
Δε θέλω να κρατηθώ...
Το φως μου τρεμοπαίζει σαν τη φλόγα στο χιόνι...
Τα φτερά μου λυγίζουν σαν τα δέντρα που τα παρασέρνει ο άνεμος...
Η καρδιά μου μαραίνεται σιγά σιγά όπως η άνοιξη που δίνει τη θέση της στον παγςμένο χειμώνα....
Τα πόδια μου δε με βαστούν...δεν υπακούν στο ρυθμό της μουσικης....
Χορεύουν ατίθασα...ανεξέλεγκτα...παρασύροντας την ψυχρή καρδιά μου σε ένα μυστηριώδες και σαγηνευτικό βαλς...
το τελευταίο μου...
Αναμνήσεις κατακλύζουν το μυαλό μου...
Παιδικά όνειρα...
Πρόσωπα που έφυγαν νωρίς...
Στιγμές που προσδοκώ να έρθουν...
Ολόκληρη η πλάση χορεύει μαζί μου...
Ανάμεικτα συναισθήματα πλημμυρίζουν την ανέκαθεν υγρή ψυχή μου....
Μπερδεμένη...
Παρανο'ι'κή...
Αφήνομαι...
στον κόσμο των επιθυμιών μου...των παραισθήσεών μου....
Όλα καταστρέφονται....
Όλα είναι αναλώσιμα...
Μάταια....
Εκτός από τα όνειρα...αθτά είναι δικά μου...μόνο δικά μου...και κανείς δεν μπορεί να μου τα κλέψει...
Εκεί...μπορώ να είμαι ό,τι θέλω εγώ...Μπορώ να είμαι εγώ!...
Εκεί θέλω να πάω...Εκεί θέλω να ζήσω...
Γι'αυτό σε ικετεύω...δώσε μου τα φάρμακά μου..τα παραισθησιογόνα μου...πρέπει να φύγω...δεν αντέχω άλλο...πόσο βαρετός αλήθεια και προβλέψιμος είναι ο κόσμος τούτος...
Θέλω να χαθώ...σαν μία σταγόνα στον απέραντο ωκεανό...
Να νιώσω συναισθήματα πρωτόγνωρα...
Να παραδώσω την ψυχή μου στους δαίμονες της μοαναξιάς μου...
Να ταξιδέψω με τους ανέμους...Να μιλήσω με τα ζώα...Να πετάξω μακριά...ελεύθερη....σαν τον περήφανο αετο...
Να αισθανθώ το τέλειο συναίσθημα του έρωτα και ας γκρεμιστώ έπειτα....
Να αφήσω το παράθυρό μου ανοιχτό για να με επισκεφτεί το αγόρι που ποτέ δε μεγαλώνει...να μου διηγηθεί ιστορίες μαγικές,απίστευτες...κρυφες...ονειρικές...
Θέλω να κσεχάσω τον έξω κόσμο...
Θέλω να είμαι ελεύθερη....
Θέλω να παραδοθώ στην παράνοιά μου....
Να την γευτώ ως το τέλος....
Θέλω να ζήσω ευτυχισμένη μέσα στις ψευδαισθήσεις μου....
Μέσα στη μόνη ζωή που γνώρισα.......
Και στη μόνη που θέλω να ξέρω....
Θέλω...
να είμαι απλά...Εγω!

LOST CHILDREN

Here they are...All around you...Listen...
Don't you listen?They're murmuring unspoken prayers...
They're playing hide and seek...
They're asking you to join them...
Don't deny..
Their pale faces staring at you...
You cannot see them...
You have forgotten...
All you childish memories seem to fade away...
They were just a meaningless dream...
But they do!They remember,they wait,they wish...singings psalms to the past...
Looking at your emotionless face through their sparkling eyes...
Here they are...hiding in the woods,behind the trees...you cannot see though....why?
You're a grown-up now.no chilhood memories in your mind!it's all gone!this child inside your hollow heart wants to be part of your life...Can't you give a chance?Can't you let it lead you through the dark of your sorrow to the the light?No....of course not...How could you anyway?Rich...Fame...Everything you've ever dreamt of...the child is crying...Warm black tears are grooving its cheeks...Listen...See....
The child wants to scream but you won't listen!You're deaf now.no fantasy,no hope,no dreams.You're like a ghost among the livings...the child gave up trying to save you...it's gone now!Following the hundrends lost children up to the sky...They found the lost northen star...They've been following it,till morning...
Neverland had been waiting for them...the place where they would never grow up....from now on they would be guiding spirits...creatures of another world...of a dream...they would always take care of people who were about to forget their chilhood!...
People who no longer they were children once...with hopes and expectations from the world...
They promised to help those silly adults to keep their souls....
Forever...
Or maybe beyond forever...
P.S. And how do i know?
.....i lost my soul once and for all,long...long.......long ago....

OUTSIDE THE WINDOW

Look ouside the window...beautiful isn't it?
Winter hasn't arrived yet...Nor has autumn...
Nature still hasn't made her final decision...
Everything seems to be possesed by a silent melancholy out there...
The fallen gilden leaves dancing all around me...
The cold wind whispering forgotten songs to my ear...
In the twilight,i can even see some fallen angels nervously looking for dead innocent souls to heal...
They are willing to give away their precious wings to save them...
Look outside your window...
There's a little blackbird singing your favourite lullaby,while the whole nature is sleeping and no other sound can be heard on earth...
Even the flowers on your balcony have fallen asleep....a deep....dreamless sleep...
Please...look outside your window...
You might notice the unumbered shadows wandering around the streets...do not fear them...
They're probably searching for their families that they lost for good the moment they passed on the other side...
Maybe,if you look carefully you'll find your beloved ones...or perhaps....mine...
I'm begging you again...Open your window...
Allow yorsef to see... the unseen...
feel it...
hear it...
follow it....
let it take you elsewhere...
Far far away from this miserable reality.....
To your very own dreamworld....
For the rest of eternity...

PERFECT LOVE...

My tortured soul is bleeding...slowly...
My corrupted heart is breathing...weakly...
My eyes remaon cold and tearless...
staring at my corpse...slightly covered by the protective leaves...
Here i stand...Frozen...Beautiful...
Finally redeemed from my human sins...
And yet,cursed...once and for all taken away from my beloved one...
My perfect love...so powerful...and above all,so real...
Being dead has absolutely no meaning to me...
I know he mas be looking everywhere to find me...
I know he will...eventually...
And then,he will cry...cry...and cry once more...till his tears become dry...
And then,he will hold my fragile body in his strong arms...
whispering my favourite fairytales...
And then,he will gently kiss me...hoping that somehow i will open those glassy eyes...
hoping that i will kiss him back...
My love is perfect...
His future sorrowness about my death is the one and only thing that makes my unhappiness grow...
I guess all i have to do now is wait for his arrival...
I guess it won't be long...
I guess he'll be terribly missing me by now...
I guess he won't forget to come visit me...
After all who knows better than him,where exactly did he left my dead body?